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May. 13th, 2005 @ 01:11 am All These Things That I've Done
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: The Killers
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't

I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out

And when there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain't changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier
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May. 11th, 2005 @ 11:19 am As long as I can have the highs
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: The Killers
ME: I'll take the lows as long as I can have the highs.
CHRIS: Yea, but when there are more lows than highs, the party's over.

It seems like this semester has been very high and very low. I had a great time with my friends, they are such amazing people and getting to spend Culture Shock with most of them was the best- and there are some pictures to prove it- apparently when we are drunk for 3 or 4 days straight we decide that it's a brilliant idea to climb on top of eachother almost all the time. I'm going to London this summer for 6 weeks and I'm really glad I can get out of this country because I think it will really help me realize that while I love purchase and college is an important part of my life, it is only the beginning. There is a whole other part of life waiting and in the future college will just be a crazy wonderful memory full of alcohol, anxiety, cigarettes, broken hearts, good sex and great friends.- oh and theatre too.
Whatever problems occurred this semester will pass, things happen- "and everything that's meant to happen does, eventually" so I take comfort in that and I sit back and smoke my parliament light 100's... and I wait for Godot...
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May. 10th, 2005 @ 06:00 pm Precalculus rocks my socks off
Current Mood: workingworking
Current Music: American Idiot
I'm studying my ass off for my final tomorrow night and it's going to be sooooo amazing because if I do well on this, like a 92 or something I am going to get a big fat A in that class. I BIG FAT A. It's amazing because I can barely spell precalculus, but who knew I'd ever get an A in a math class. It's actually quite refreshing from the usual drama studies papers. Plus, Bocchi's amazing, and such a source of amusement.
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May. 9th, 2005 @ 12:19 am George Carlin was awesome
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Deceptacon- Le Tigre


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May. 8th, 2005 @ 04:21 pm "You need somebody to love you while you're looking for someone to love"
Current Mood: moodymoody
I would like to feel like I'm really important to someone, just one person.
I'm starting to pack my bags. I just want to get out of here. I want to begin the nights of driving around yonkas with tos and everyone else from home, just smoking cigarettes and listening to emo songs.
Some people's parents are so rude, I don't understand it. I get so upset when adults act like assholes. Maybe it's because I think that since they're older they should know better, especially if they have kids. My parents would never be rude to anyone I know, or anyone in general. You don't have to be a great person just to have basic manners.
I can't wait to have a kid or two just so I can torture them.

Gentlemen Callers by Michael Paller
Broke Heart Blues by Joyce Carol Oates
A Garden of Earthly Delights by Joyce Carol Oates
The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Steve Chobosky
Fefu and Her Friends by Maria Irene Fornes
The Sandbox by Edward Albee

Those are the books/ plays that I have so far for this summer. I also want to read another Palanthuk book but I'm not sure which...
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May. 8th, 2005 @ 03:50 pm I'm turning into a rhinoceros
Current Mood: cynicalcynical
Current Music: Igby Goes Down theme song
I just had a really bad stupid experience with some people from the past. It seems like the season is just knocking around everyone's better judgement. People are going crazy finishing finals, senior projects, whatever and everyone is starting to jump on eachothers backs. I just want to finish this semester and go home and read my books in peace. I still have a whole year left and I'm already getting sick of some of the assholes at Purchase. Soon they'll get to me and I'll have a horn growing out of my forehead, just like them.
Oh, and Fiona's final... haven't started.
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May. 6th, 2005 @ 01:22 am A Taste of Honey
Current Mood: tiredtired
“JO: You’ve emptied more bottles down your throat in the last few weeks than I would have thought possible. If you don’t watch it, you’ll end up and old down-and-out boozer knocking back the meths.
HELEN: It’ll never come to that. The devil looks after his own, they say.
JO: He certainly takes good care of you. You look marvelous, considering.
HELEN: Considering what?
JO: The wear and tear on your soul.
HELEN: Oh well, that’ll have increased its market value, won’t it?
JO: Old Nick’ll get you in the end.
HELEN: Thank God for that! Heaven must be the hell of a place. Nothing but repentant sinners up there, isn’t it? All the pimps, prostitutes and politicians in creation trying to cash in on eternity and their little tin god. Where’s my hat?”

I love this play.
And it's going to be on my final tomorrow.
And I'm exhausted.
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May. 5th, 2005 @ 05:06 pm There's nothing like leaving class early
Current Mood: dorkydorky
Current Music: Bohemian Like You by The Dandy Warhols
I'm going to make sausages for Michael Paller's goodbye party. Italien sausages- hot ones and sweets ones, a little something for everybody. Maybe if I get really crazy I'll cook some keilbasa too.
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